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please help... [07 Jun 2006|10:57am]

I need as much information on the following abilify and lamictal.... please help asap... what does this do, is it addictive? what are the side effects? what happened when you went on these drugs or to the person you know taking them????
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[07 Jun 2006|03:35am]

is there a quiz out there you can take to find out if your bipolar?
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Newness [02 Jun 2006|04:32pm]

Hey, all, completely new here. I am 18, living in California, and suspecting that I MIGHT be dealing with borderline personality disorder. If not that, then just general depression, heh. I'm not sure what I'm looking for here; maybe just a place to vent.
So I might be losing my SO thanks to borderline tendencies of mine. I have difficulty dealing with being alone, and have trouble controlling my anger at times. He tells me he's feeling "tied down" and "trapped." He also tells me I'm too sensitive and too emotional. This basically makes me feel like it's entirely my fault for things going to shit. I mean, I know that I have a tendency to be VERY manipulative and needy. I guess I'm just looking for a good way to stop it. I just wish I hadn't ruined one of the best things in my life because of it, ya know?
Any advice or sympathy would be MUCH appreciated...I'm feeling pretty low right now.
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dealing with it all [28 May 2006|12:57pm]

Too much going on. My brain is taking a vacation. Not that I want it to. It just is. I'm not coping with the trip to Africa, moving and then attending school. I need help.

I have finally understand how I deal with major events in my life. I sleep. My physical body doesn't need it but my mental body takes all it can get away with and some extra. I don't know how to keep up the daily schedule let alone the need to deal with the big events scheduled. There is so much that I need to do to get ready for each event.

I guess I need to start with lists...a list for Africa. After that maybe I can concentrate on moving...after that I can concentrate on attending school.

Taking each event one at a time won't work. Not only working on Africa, I still have to get the drapes finished before we move and then pack up my sewing room. Before I concentrate on moving I have to find financial aid, set up courses to take and set up housing and insurance at Asbury for school.

I am afraid of leaning just on aefenglommung because he is so stressed with his own schedule for the summer. He really doesn't need a puddle of jello to haul around because I just can't cope.

I need help.
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hi [09 Nov 2005|11:43pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

hi everyone.....i'm feeling so very frustrated lately....my best guess is ADD. I can't focus on anything to save my life. I sit and stare at the wall daydreaming when I should be reading and I don't even realize that I'm doing it until half an hour or so in. It is making my classes very difficult. I have a lot of papers this semester and I am finding harder to write them then ever before. I just felt like venting a little bit. Perhaps others here are having similar problems? have a good night all

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[19 Oct 2005|05:30pm]

[ mood | excited ]

For those of you like me that can't take anti-depressants I have found a great pick-me-up...Chamomile tea. I noticed it a couple of days ago when I took it to work with me. I was feeling great, laughing, talking doing my work well. The problem came around noon when I started feeling beat and wanted to crawl into a bed. So today I took some tea bags with me and made some tea to have with my lunch. Again I felt great. That lasted for the rest of the day. Of course the sun was shining this week. They are predicting rain for the next couple of days. I'll see if it effects my mood with the Chamomile tea. The taste is a little off but maybe I can get used to it or try it over ice with a little sweetener.

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[19 Sep 2005|08:32pm]

[ mood | worried ]

im not sure what to do at this point

i was in my entropersonal dynamics class and the professer was teaching us about natural subcontios reactions that your eyes do when you think. but one of the coments he made was "now if the person cosistantly lets there eyes out of focus...like they are looking but you can tell there not seeing....almost like the eyes glaze over, now thats something else. Thats something called Neg. halusination and that is a whole other set of problems...but lets move on."

I do that all the time. They said it was part of my ADD. I looked it up and i found that people with this problem often live in there own sence of reality. People who have this and are put under and hypnotised can be told that they are not aware of someone and when they wake up they dont see them even when they are standing right there and talking or even hurting them. The do not feel or react to any of it. but if the person is told to remember by that person or uses a key word to bring them back to the way they were. they tend to remember it in full.

it kinda scared me...just the fact that i am actually listening and ubsorbing when i space out but when someone asks me about it i dont remember. That is till something will trigger that memory.

When these people are under they also contously hear this person that to them has disappered in there eyes. How ever if this person speaks to them or tells them to do something, soon after they do it. it doesnt occure to them that anything is wrong and they have a prosable reason why its so or they simply dont think the remember.

i have a habbit of knowing how to do things or information but have no recolection of ever learning it. Scarier yet, im usually right but i cant always tell you why i know.

I found more that in schizophrenic paciants they express Pos. and Neg. Halusination and cognitive something (understanding and comprention) I found that im pretty sure i have and show all these think.

i am being treated for ADD but i think i have schizophrenia in addition or maybe a misdiagnoses.

What do i do?
if i tell my mom im schizophrenic she wont believe me.

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[06 Sep 2005|12:54am]

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers.
You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going.
And you can keep these thoughts going at any time.
You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.
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[05 Aug 2005|11:37am]

month and a half in and im all ready begining to hate myself. The mood swings are just getting worse. my tolarnce just keeps getting higher and higher. if this keeps up im going to be taking like 60-70 mg a day and im still going to crash and end up crying myself to sleep every night. i dont know if i can do this. School hasnt even started and im all ready begining to break. Now this guy is going to have me become the star pupel again and get me back on track and im begining to hate him for it...and i dont know why. all this and my friends still dont know whats up, what mood im going to be in when i go to meet up with them or how long its going to stay that way. They cant predict what im going to do next. I cant do big crowds. i cant deal with my family and they have no idea. i cant take this much longer. i havent considered throwing myself out my window since the seventh grade. now i know i could never actually do it but it doesnt stop me from thinking about it every night. nothing tastes good. nothing satisfies. i just keep falling and falling and i can never hit bottom because there is no bottom. all i can is continue to fall and hit the sides of this hole i seem to cast myself into...of course i could have hit bottom quite a while ago and am to numb to actually notice that im no longer falling but have spattered onto the floor and yet my torment doesnt end.

i dont know what to do anymore. i feel like i cant fix this.
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sometimes [03 Mar 2005|05:17am]

Every now and then I just want to put a gun to my head and end the violence. Just a thought that wanders into my head sometimes, nothing serious. I know that is unacceptable and I banish such thoughts from my mind. My schedule feels hectic and I don't have time to do some of the things I sometimes want to do. My life is acceptable and I shouldn't feel like I need to escape.

They are talking about hiring me on permanent at work. Do I really want to inspect monitors and do data entry for the rest of my working life? Do I have other options?
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[22 Nov 2004|06:34pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

i recently started a job repairing computer monitors in a factory setting. Among the 25-30 employees there are only 4 women. Most of the employees are Mexican and speak Spanish most of the time. There is a very outgoing man there that has told the Mexicans that I am "one hot momma". I asked him why he said that. I think he thought it was a complement. I told him I don't want to get involved with any more men, 1 man was enough (meaning my husband). This man also calls people M-F----- in jest and others laugh it off. Profanity abounds, but I guess that is the case mostly everywhere. There were people who cussed where I worked in a factory. I guess I'm confused about how to react. I don't want to cause trouble and have people act artificially around me...or do I? Is it lack of respect or just the casual atmosphere? And I wonder what would happen if I complained. This job is temp-to-hire and I really want to be hired on. Any comments on this situation would be greatly appreciated.

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[22 Nov 2004|12:49pm]

If you have no money

What do you create/make for you family for Xmas?
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[29 Sep 2004|08:14pm]

[ mood | tired ]

Hi, I'm new to this community. I'm a college student and I've suspected for some time that I have a mild form of Asperger's Syndrome or Adult Autism. I've never been officially diagnosed as such, though I was diagnosed with ADD (inattentive type) when I was a little girl.

I need some advice about work:

I was hired to be a bartender at a country club and I was told that OCCASIONALLY I'd be asked to wait tables. However, this is just not the case – all I've been doing since I started is waiting tables. Basically, I'm just a waitress that makes alcoholic drinks sometimes. I'm okay interacting with people on a one-on-one basis (such as a person who'd be sitting at the bar drinking...), but waiting tables really stresses me out and these people at the country club are so picky and so demanding and besides that, they seem to take great delight in being condescending/verbally abusive to staff members. These people expect you to bend over backwards for them and no matter what you do, it's never good enough. It's not like they even tip. I don't think that they even understand the concept of tipping after one receives good service. Worst of all, Management won't back you up at all – the managers are too busy trying to save face with the club members.

So here is my question: What are some good jobs (i.e. decent pay and limited or no customer contact) for people like me who are very shy or who have poor "people" skills?

Thanks in advance for your advice. :)

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dunno what to do........... [15 Sep 2004|09:44pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

first of all.Well i had a lesson...and i rather have mary back

2nd of all my friend's horse was put down sat. She got really sick at the fair then they took her to ohio and they thought she was ok but then got worse. Sooo her owner told me tonight and she thought i knew but i didnt and we bot sarted crying.

3rd of all kim wanted to know where mary was and i told her and she had a bill for her sooo i dunno about that.

4th of all my friend got fired from her job went to N.C for a wwek with out telling me and wont even look at me know. WTF is that all about??

5th of all rose said in was an inconvince to come over and teach me.


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[13 Sep 2004|03:05pm]

Two nights ago I was rushed to the hospital with a bad case of near-death. You know how I posted about that rash or hives or whatever that were driving me insane? Well, then I started getting this fever, and then my fingers and toes and lips starting turning blue and going numb, so before the blue numbness got to my brain, I managed to call 911 and tell them that I just didn’t think that was right.

So the paramedics came and stuck a million needles in me (some of them missed, hence the heroin chic), and my medicalert bracelet had a chance to help.

And, you know how sometimes people will talk about you while you’re in the room as if you’re not, and you get to hear your voice in the third person, even though you’re not pretending to be Bobe Dole or anything? Well, you and I, and every observational comic since the 70s has known that that is a really weird and annoying feeling. But it’s quite another thing when it happens NOT at an awkward tenth grade party, but in an emergency room, and the people talking about you are paramedics, and what they’re saying is that you almost died. It’s, uhm, different. Beyond different.

I had an allergic reaction to one of the anti-seizure meds I was taking, and it closed up my throat and gave me crazy hives all over my body, my blood pressure was scarily low and I was not even close to breathing right or being in a normal state of mind. But aside from that, now I’ve gone practically numb, body, brain, and emotion-wise. What can you do? Four trips to the emergency room or urgent care or some such thing, four trips in the space of two weeks? Not to mention the incredibly different and numbing and weird break-up with Ian that went down.

You know that “it’s funny because it’s true” feeling you get with certain jokes? I get them now with jokes relating to Mr. Burns and Professor Farnsworth and stuff now, because I’ve come close to death, what is it, two or three times now? I mean, when Farnsy says, “Well, I’m technically alive,” I laugh because that’s how I feel – “technically” alive. Technically, I’m enrolled in school, technically this technically that, etc. I FEEL WEIRD.

Yeah, so now my mom’s up here with me. I might go home for a few days to see my dog, and any friends who are down there; visit Cleveland, that always gives me a boost OR SOMETHING.

But, that’s all there really is to say, them’s the facts. I love all you, even a good portion of you who will never ever read this, and that love and your souls are the reasons that I haven’t jumped out a window or stopped taking my pills or anything crazy. So, I know most you of are crazy atheists or something, and this will sound corny and stupid as hell, but pray for me, because there’s nothing rational left to do, so be irrational and appeal to the big sweeping soul that envelopes us all, whatever name (if any) you have for it. That’s all I’ve been able to do, and it feels as better as it possible could. I promise I’ll be able to feel it when it comes through from you. Adios, motherfuckers!
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Silver Ribbom Letter [12 Sep 2004|01:10am]

Hey guys. I went to the agency picnic today and they were giving out silver ribbions today and a letter to the Postmaster General. Here's the story and explanation. THe silver ribbons are for (and this is the explanation on the ribbon): "The Silver Ribbon is the trademark symbol of a grassroots movement to promote public awareness of the need for support of people of people with brain disorders and disabilities." THe letter for the postmaster is because the postal servaice is thinking of doing a stamp of the silver ribbons and the letter is to let the postal service know that people want this stamp. If you want the postmaster general to know that you want the stamp you print the letter and sign it. Then send it to your local postmaster. The letter is behing the cut. Thank so much guys.

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help. [10 Sep 2004|08:10pm]

I get too attached to people, and scare them off, because I am too attached to them. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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